Thursday, October 22, 2009

In Barney’s Belly

After years of whining, my long suffering husband finally decided to give in and rent a place for us to nest on. Our recent transfer explains my long absence from the blogosphere.

For once, it felt great to be severed from my online haunts. Finally, I am the mistress of my own kingdom although the color of this kingdom gives me the crossed feeling of experiencing Dora’s vibrant Latin roots and being inside Barney’s belly in the middle of an indigestion. The mustard walls seem both uplifting and maddening. No vomit inducing technique however will ever force me to exit Barney’s belly. I’ll stay here for as long as it takes to get my own place with the right colors.

I’m supposed to be flipping with glee and giving Barney an even more severe tummy ache but as with everything else, there’s always a price to pay. Aside from the numerous multi-legged pests that show up with little warning in the middle of the night with the seeming intent of killing me by surprise, I find myself missing part of the reason I left my home of six years.

I had thought that what I wanted was to be away from the noise and perpetual happiness that exemplify THE Filipino, but seeing my toddler in the earliest case of inconsolable depression I had ever seen and my husband nearly in tears broke my heart to little bits. The worst part is that whatever they have seems contagious. When once I was happiest on my own, I find myself missing the endless pork feasts, drink fests, chatter sprees and karaoke marathons not to mention the mountains of plates that have to be washed afterwards. After six years, I am finally becoming Filipino, I think.

I wonder if moving into Barney’s belly has been for the best.

23 comments:

  1. ah...you guys have your own place nah....congratz!

    well...i guess....cguro sa una lng yan....

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  2. *Hands Ma'am Grace an imaginary housewarming present: Bookshelf*

    Here's to hoping that things will become brighter (but not nauseatingly bright hehe) for the whole family! I doubt there'll be room for gloom with a new bundle of joy coming soon. Congratulations! =)

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  3. thanks webie and traveling minstrel. i sure hope the gloom drifts away.

    i love the bookshelf traveling minstrel. actually that's what i really lack right now. my books are all in milo boxes :) maybe i should get a Kindle in the future so i can take 1000 books with me in one device anywhere i go without the hassle of boxes :)

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  4. Hi maaaaam! :D Great to hear you've got your own space na!
    What color are you going for, by the way, if not bright and sunny yellow? Black again? :P
    How's your newest rugrat? You really pushing through with the Pax name? :)

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  5. YEY! Congrats grace! hmmm now i really have to send you guys one of my paintings :)

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  6. Name him/her Alex! That way, youre descendants will all be intelligent, handsome, and bent on megalomaniacal amibitions!

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  7. @aimee and alex- well my husband picked seth. i don't know if he's named after a megalomaniac but he is named after the Egyptian god of chaos and destruction. haha

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  8. Seth. Already loving it.
    Congrats with the move, Ma'am G!

    Have you heard of the The Yellow Wallpaper? Somehow, your description of Barney's Belly reminded me of it. It was about postpartum depression. 0.o But I'm sure you'll have a happier pregnancy!

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  9. hahaha. what a coincidence that we have yellow paint. i actually had a difficult pregnancy and a complicated delivery but then that's sometimes part of the experience :)

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  10. Seth? The name of Death and destruction? OMG, Ma'am, you might just be the vessel of the prophesized antichrist! Be prepared! Do not be fooled by the adorable miracle that he will look like when he finally escapes your womb. Beneath the cute babyface mask hides the face of evil! And the Belly of the satanic lizard Barney is the perfect place to foster the darkness within him. Beware!8-0
    Congratulations on your new house and upcoming offspring! Best wishes and good luck!
    -Maryfgr

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  11. hehe. well mary, if the Bible is used as reference, seth is also the third son of adam and eve and means "appointed". it is supposedly from him that the line of Jesus descended from. so i have two definitions to choose from depending on who wants to know what seth means. hehe

    thanks for the wishes

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  12. hi grace,

    nanganak na ka? i havent heard from u in a while na? :)

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  13. Seth! That's great Ma'am! Sounds intellectual.

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  14. you've given birth already?
    congrats!!!!

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  15. yup yup. happy sleepless days are here again. hehe

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  16. lumabas na ba Maam?hehehe...congrats!!!!

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  17. maam! i miss you! congratulations!! soooo.. when can i visit you?! hahahaha -nadine gadia

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  18. hi nadz. miss you too. my goodness natangkas akong tahi. i don't know when i'll be well again. huhuhu

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  19. OHMYGAWD IT'S BORN?! EEE! POST PICTURES OF THE NEWBORN! PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE! AS MANY AS POSSIBLE!
    Great job creating a miracle ma'am. Now I'm sure the real fun begins now that the new little ball of sunshine is here!
    Good luck and Godspeed! :-D
    -MaryFGR

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  20. believe it or not mary, i am so not into family/personal photos that i never even bothered to get myself a camera... heck the pictures of my entire life can fit in one small album. hehehe

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  21. Yaaaay! Seth's here na! Congrats again Ma'am!
    Does he bear semblance to you, or does he look more like his dad? :)

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  22. thanks aimee. actually, we don't know who he looks like. he doesn't look like me or my husband. haha

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